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- Website version: 4.3.20.7 (last updated: august 21 2026) | LICENSE
- This is my personal website, where i share a bit of me and some shit i do.
> Also a "repository" of my projects and their resources.
Welcome to my little space
☆======= About Me =========☆
BAM! ₍₍⚞(˶>ᗜ<˶)⚟⁾⁾ HELLOOOO, Im zoe.I don't use pronouns, those are boring as hell, just call me "human" or "creature".
My nature is not making sense, being vague and super radical.
I live in portugal, i am portuguese :D
I build stuff, like apps, art, music - besides living ofc
I LOOOVE jelly fishes! They are like.. so complex for no reason heheh. My fav not-pet animal.
i am supa unstable - emotionally
☆======= Free time stuff =========☆
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Make playlists (over 600 tracks each) for specific things, emotions or situations.
(Like a playlist named "addicted" with only tracks i am addicted. if i stop being addicted: removed.)
- Play games. (Minecraft, PEAK, SuperHOT, Friday Night Funkin', Easy Delivery Co ...)
- Drowning myself in music whenever I have the chance.
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I study these things randomly:
- Advanced astronomy & space stuff
- Philosophy & history & human mind
- Algorithms & Web security
- 2d+3d Animation (both at the same time)
- Game development (i never could understand)
- Acting & Performance
- Sociology & Anthropology
- Conspiracy theories (the weirder, the better)
- Music design & video production
- Write stories about.. lot of stuff, fantasy.. abtract reality, weird concepts, new emotions..
- I dance sometimes, when im happy enough...
- Create fictional world maps and give them stories
- Watch clouds for hours
- Drawing random characters that appear in my head
- Go out with friends
☆======= Curiosities =========☆
- Weekly or monthly, i randomly spend 1 to 5 days without entering any social media or message apps. Due to emotional instability. So if i disapear.. i didn't kill myself.
- Started coding since 11.. Started drawing since 4.. And started actually creating something with it at 14.
- Crazy things are attractive to me. (Not fucked up)
- For some reason, i'm fucking OBSESSED WITH STARS!!!!! I LOVEEE STARZZZZ OMGOMGOG.. i just can't explain, my brain is wired to just.. be addicted to them. their shape...
- I'm stupidly bad at math.. like really. My mind was made for logic, math is just a bunch of rules. It just doesn't click
- My creative process starts by looking around me and ends in pure chaos and metal distress. But I still deliver.
- Linear approaches make me feel weak, confused and anxious. So.. i often do multiple projects at the same time, rotating between them whenever i feel to.
- I hate using big frameworks. I want TOTAL control and choices over my project & tools!
- I love stories where the theme is mostly fantasy (superficial), action (deep lore), violence (with emotional impact), drama (with controversy and unusual themes), theatrical, interdimentional themes.
- My music style is.. very confusing: alternative rock, trance/girl-edm, digital/weird/hypercore, hip-hop (before 2017), indie-pop, breakcore.
- I have a very weird sense of humor, i like dark comedy, surreal comedy, anti-jokes, ironic and unintentional comedy.
- Aesthetics... I like things that are chaotic, colorful, with a lot of contrast without much detail.
- I don't have any sense of fashion. I dress how I like and feel more comfy in.
- Thinking hurts sometimes. So like... 90% of the time, my head is completely turned off and whatever I say doesn't have any filter.
- Can't stand love. Not made for it, i want it, but eventually i will become even more unstable emotionally and lose myself.
- Im building "Ghostware" - projects that are spiritually finished but physically unmanifested.
- I love food! I like "panados", sushi, wraps, fried chiken, bean soup, cheesecake.. uhm.. yea
- My fav fruit is blueberries, second place is stawberry and peaches!!
- I had schizophrenia once, but it wasn't scary, just was a bunch of me-clones doing their business and discussing between each other.
- I wake up (naturally) everynight at 4 am to drink hot chocolate and then go to bed again.
- When i talk about a project i am still developing in my head.. every question feels like an attack. If i ever talk about a project that i didn't release yet, don't ask, just listen.
- I lost count of how many virtual names i ever has.. if i had to guess, probably 20 or so..
- I collect/steal sugar packs from cafes, all of them, for what? To pay for university or smth.. one day i'm going to have enough sugar packs to pay it. + i have sugar for my cappuccinos. Just advantages.
- I love talking about myself, i guess all humans do, but i don't.. know exacly when to stop, so pls warn me if im pushing the chat... It's not on purpose and i seek learning self-control.
- My fav type of cheese is shredded mozzarella. I swear, looks like i am drugged when i smell it. In fact, i am eating that right now as i am writting this.
☆======= My own principles / beliefs =========☆
- Don't apologize for being yourself. Don't apologise if not on ur control.
- "To be cringe is to be free"
- Being a kid/teen is all about doing decisions that you regret later! Go nuts, enjoy life, don't worry about anything, be sad of the consequences.
- Stay away from money kids, that drug will destroy you sooner or later in life.
- We should serve our-selves, and our kind. I am talking about humanity btw.
- I believe the internet should stay an anarchy, no corporate should dictate any part of it outside their platforms and services.
- AI is not a tool, not an entity, it is it's own category - should have it's own rules, usage protocols - think about it.
- Love is supposted to hurt. Don't hide the pain. If is too much, then it's definitly not love - it's another thing.
- We have multiple lifes within one.
- Instead of trying to solve everything... why won't just let it be? Mistakes can make thing beautiful and unique.
- All projects that i've done and published - are for my future self and all the internet.
- If you first ask "how u are going to profit from that" when I introduce a project, you are nothing to me anymore.
- Once I promise, I keep it. No takebacks. 'Till I die.
- I want to create memories - not create and develop things because "yes" or whatever u have to offer me.
- I hate and I am against generative AI. Only acceptable use cases: learning and study. AI images are only for representation of a concept/idea and should not be used to replace anything. Humans need to be in the middle of the process. I use AI in coding as a tool to help debug and document my projects; it won't replace the process or any part of it.
- Stop caring isn't the same as giving up.
- Do it first, deal with the consequences later. But.. i don't do that if the decision isn't yours, or has other people in any part of the process.
- Self love is the most important kind of love.
- I’d rather have a broken tool that belongs to me than a perfect one that owns me.
- I can do stuff better with my soul than you can with your money.
- I am still learning how to be mature.. but i know that being mature is not about being serious, it's about being responsible for your actions and their consequences, and also being able to adapt to different situations and people without losing yourself.
- If i was rich, Plan A: destroy the money in the most cool, violent and non-recoverable way. Plan B: off-myself
- "If something takes a choice out of you in any way - then it's not right"
- I believe in humanity, i believe in you.
THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS (by Black Dresses)
